Tuesday, April 29, 2008

First day back to school!

I guess I should have updated yesterday about this. Max's first day back to school on meds went well. Miss Sarah said she didn't notice a change in his activity level, but Sparkles the tooth fairy was there so you can't blame him for being excited. Haha!! He did have less outbursts and seemed to be able to stay on task better though so that's a good start. When I picked him up yesterday afternoon he was in music class. He sat on the floor with his little legs crossed listening intently. I couldn't believe it and wouldn't have had I not seen it myself. I guess the meds are working!!

Alex has his 18 month appointment later today so that should be interesting. I'm thinking he has fallen off the growth charts, but then I remembered that their scale weighs differently than ours. Maybe he is doing ok. He's definitely active and that probably burns more calories, but we shall see.

I'm back to work tonight after having 6 nights off. I'm soooo not looking forward to it, but I know it'll be fine once I get there. I do look forward to getting some real sleep this week without the kids interrupting me 5 times. And no little knees in my back and arms across my forehead.

I'll try to make it back tonight to let you know how Alex is doing, otherwise, I'll definitely update later this week!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Back home!

But you probably didn't even know I was gone. I took the boys this weekend and headed up to MI to see the grandparents. We were going to stay until today, but Max and I decided that driving while the kids were sleeping would be a better idea. They got up just in time to go to school today which was nice for me. I took a nice long nap when I got home and finally got up and around to start unpacking. Laundry is being done now and I did the dishes earlier. So proud of myself. Stinks that I have to go back to work tomorrow.

My dad looks good. He looks like he lost a lot of weight, but I'm sure that won't hurt him. My brothers were around all weekend doing yard work and other heavy duty stuff that my dad shouldn't do and he spent the weekend supervising. It was pretty entertaining to say the least. My mom had an awesome dinner Sunday afternoon, made by neighbor Pat, and all of us were there. Haven't done that in a long time!

We also spent mornings with grandma and grandpa. They are doing well and of course loved having the boys over. It was warm enough Friday evening when we got there to play outside so the boys got to squirt each other with grandpa's hose and get completely soaked. We also headed over to Mike and Katherine's yesterday afternoon so Max could play with Splendid. They had alot of fun. We had pizza and cupcakes too which was great! I'll always eat cupcakes ;)

Max started his Ritalin this weekend as well. My little man could swallow that pill on the first try with no problems! I was so proud of him. Each time he had to take one he would show me his mouth so I would know it went down, and he was pretty excited about it too. I can't say I noticed a huge difference, but I could tell when it started wearing off so it must be working. Today will be the real test since he's at school.

I guess I really don't have much else to talk about. I thought there was more, but nothing is coming to me. I need to get back to work anyway so I'll talk to everyone later!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Oh Miss Jessica!! Read here please!

What happened??? I was going to talk to Beth but there were several other parents around and I was in a hurry since it was already after 5. Tomorrow won't be much better since we are leaving for Michigan. Please leave me a comment, e-mail me, call me, something!! Rajah1000 @ gmail.com without the spaces. I'm dying to know whats up. You already looked in a bad mood this morning so I'm sure you were ticked about something. I'm going to miss you so somehow this will not be the end!!!

For everyone else, none of your beeswax! Haha, just kidding. Not much new to report. Had Max's first counseling appointment tonight. He acted all shy at first, was a little obnoxious in the office, but overall did ok. We'll probably start out doing this weekly for awhile and see if it helps. They are hoping Tim can come next time. He was supposed to be there tonight, but too much going on a at work. GRR!

Heading to MI tomorrow to see the grandparents and Max is very excited about that. Alex is just cranky so I think I'll be putting him to bed any minute!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Boredom post!

I really want to be scrapbooking right now, but I cannot focus so here I am. I have the news on in the background and decided I would come here to talk about it rather than calling Tim at work. He'd kick my butt.

Let me preface this by saying I still do not know who I am voting for come November. However, I'm finding the democratic race to be quite humorous. Hillary is soooo smug about her win in PA boasting about how she's still in the race. Did she read or hear about the stuff where tons of Republicans changed their party lines a short time before this election so they could vote in the democratic primaries. They are voting for her because they feel that their candidate is more likely to beat her in the end. She isn't going to get those same votes when the real election rolls around.

Does she know all this, and just has to play dumb so people think she's confident. Or does she just not get it?

I can honestly say I do not want to be voting for her come election day. I've had enough of that family..although I've had enough of the current president as well.

I usually don't talk politics because I can't back my beliefs up with facts, but this just really struck me as funny! I say GO OBAMA because then I feel like I'll actually have to do my research in a few months rather than making a decision based on default.

K, that's all I have for now. I should be back but we'll have to see. As I said, I'm not very focused today. I am going to see my parents this weekend though so I'll definitely have that to talk about in a few days!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

My daddy is home!!!

Well, not home as in back in Michigan, but he has finally been released from the hospital. They let him go last night. He's eating and doing great!! They have a flight leaving Florida first thing in the morning on Wednesday and should be home that afternoon. I'm so excited. Now I can't wait to get up there and visit. Hopefully I can work that out soon.

No more time to post tonight. Had a great day today, but not nearly enough sleep considering I worked last night and I'm working again tonight. I was outside with the boys from 1:00 when I woke up until 5 when I finally coerced them inside with the promise of a bath. Alex was clean and in bed by 6. Max was clean, helped pick up the basement and in bed by 7:30. I'm showered and now I'm taking a nap. I will try to update more tomorrow if I have anything to talk about ;)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Lots O' Updates

I've waited a few days to write this post because I wanted to make sure I can get through it. Wednesday night Max did ok at gymnastics, but it's apparent that he is more hyper than the other kids. At least to me. After we got home and put the kids to bed, Tim came and said I could go ahead and medicate him. Not sure if it was my blog, my whining, or seeing him with the other kids, but thankfully he changed his mind. He did say I could say "I told you so" when it works, but he also said to expect one in return in 20 years when Max has some weird disease he got from taking the meds. Haha! Doubt that'll happen, but then again you never know.

Anyway, the reason I was so thankful he changed his mind was because of Thursday. I was only home from work for 20 minutes and about to go to bed when I got a call from school. Max had hit another child in the chest so hard she couldn't breath and then proceeded to bite her drawing blood. All because he didn't want her on the same toy he was on. I had to go get him. Needless to say it was no fun being awake more than 36 hours straight, but I survived. He was on the verge of being expelled, but fortunately his director really wants to work with him. She advocated for him big time, but also said getting him on meds was probably the only way they'd agree to let him stay. The soonest I could get in to see anyone is next Friday at his pediatrician. I also have an appointment May 9th with a psychiatrist who will take over his care. I would prefer that he be followed by someone who specializes in these meds and children.

Friday he was able to go back while I spent the day trying to get him in somewhere sooner and did ok. But let me tell you, I was scared to death to drop him off. I figured someone would say something about the previous day and he would explode again. Or anything could set him off really. It's like an impulse thing. Instead of getting the feeling, thinking about it and realizing it's wrong, he just acts and thinks about it afterwards where he ends up crying because he feels so bad. It breaks my heart. Both that he did it, and that he didn't mean to but couldn't stop himself in time. We discussed with him many times that if someone makes him angry he's supposed to go to Miss Connie's office to his safe place, and he'll tell you that if you ask him, but he just doesn't have time to think before he acts. Hopefully getting him on some meds will really help.

The next update is my dad. He seems to finally be getting better everyday. He's now eating solid foods and doing great with them. His white counts are heading downward which is great too. The last time I spoke to him they were planning on releasing him Monday. Not sure when they'll get back to MI but at least he'll be here soon.

Hmm, I guess next would be the earthquake. Yup, you read that right. In case you didn't hear about it in the news, there was an earthquake in southern Illinois. We felt it all the way up here in South Bend. Thanks to our kids being up at 5am we were laying in bed in a semi sleep when it happened. It was a very strange feeling to get woken up by your bed shaking and dresser handles rattling. My first thought was earthquake and sure enough it was on the news just a little while later. Kinda cool since it wasn't a big one that did much damage. I wouldn't want to live where they happened regularly though.

Next is Russ. He had his surgery this week and from what I hear it didn't go as well as planned. He is doing better now though, and we'll just kinda wait to see what comes of it. Hopefully they find it's nothing and he can get back to life!

Yesterday was gorgeous outside and Tim came home from work a little early so we let the boys stay up way too late. We played, sat on the big swing, let Alli take them for a walk. It was so beautiful. Alex was dressed enough that he could be cleaned up with a washcloth and was sent to bed only a little late. Max on the other hand desperately needed a bath so in the tub he went. He was more than 2 hours late for bed which I knew meant bad things for this morning. He was a grump and acted up big time at gymnastics. After a nap though, he's been doing ok.

I work the next 4 nights in a row so that'll be slightly stressful. Tim isn't off till Tuesday which means I'm on my own tomorrow with no sleep. Fortunately Alli has agreed to come babysit so I can get at least a few hours uninterrupted.

I guess that's about all I've got for now. Alex is out walking with Alli again and Max is upstairs watching a movie so I need to use this time to get me another nap. I'll keep updating as I have more info!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I think my eyes are broken

I found this on my camera when I went to get pictures off this morning. Only, it's just not possible that this situation ever occurred so how can there be a picture?

Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing - Photo Books

Really, both of them sitting still at the same time?? And next to each other? It can't be right. I'll have to check with Tim when he gets home because I know I didn't take this picture.

Just talked to my dad a little bit ago. He sounds really good. He said he's on a clear liquid diet now, but doing well with it. Hasn't gotten sick yet. He's starting to feel alot better too, but its a slow going process and that's driving him crazy. Hopefully we'll find out soon when they are going to release him. He had to hang up in a hurry because a nurse came into the room so I'm also hoping they call back at some point later today.

I've been cleaning the house this morning which is so not fun. Next on my list is to go put away the piles of laundry on the couch upstairs. I've never seen the piles so big before so I'm thinking every piece of clothing the boys own was dirty. I'm back to work tonight too so anything not done isn't getting done.

Max has gymnastics tonight if he can make it through the school day without getting into trouble. It's watch day so I should be able to get some pictures if Alex cooperates. We actually get to be inside the gym in the balcony as opposed to sitting outside the mirrored window. Max is pretty excited about that so I'm thinking he'll have a good day.

Not much else to talk about. Just had to share that picture when I saw it. I still don't believe it.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Were the answers right?

Max had a big blow up at school today. Again. This time he scratched his teacher and drew blood from her hand. NOT cool! The director called me. I think it helped keep his spot there that she knows we had him evaluated. She's not sure she agrees with the fact that he is "only" ADHD. She thinks there may be something more that the psychologist wasn't able to see only having 3 sessions with him. Maybe oppositional defiant disorder? Not sure, but his outbursts are bad. Usually removing him from the situation and taking him somewhere he feels safe helps, but we can't continue to let him have these out of control behaviors. The director has 4 sons, one with ADHD, one with ADD and ODD, and two that were ok. She's been there done that and really is willing to help us. I just pray we can figure out what works for him and stick with it. It kills me to know he always feels remorse after his episodes. He doesn't like that he gets that way, but he can't help it. He can't stop it on his own before it goes to far so I guess that's up to us to help him learn.

It definitely makes me want to hurry up and get him into counseling. For his sake and for ours. The sooner he can learn to control himself and we can learn how to help him, the sooner I might not feel like such a horrible parent. I agreed not to push for meds because Tim is so against it at the time being. However, what if they would help?? They helped Rusty, but I know every person is different. I just don't want him to go through life being labeled as the angry kid. Especially because he is so loving and caring when he isn't blowing up. Anyway, I feel like after today I want him on meds more than ever. Because I want to help him find balance long before he starts school.

I don't know much right now other than I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes feeling so guilty that he's this way. Wishing I could just flip a switch and make it better. I'm sure tonight when Tim gets home we'll talk about it. Hopefully that'll leave me feeling better than I do right now. I do know I'm calling the friend who referred us to the psychologist so I can find out from her who to take him to for counseling. I'd like to get that set us ASAP.

I'll let you know more when I know more.

As for my dad, he was supposed to have some infected drainage sucked out yesterday but that didn't happen. Not exactly sure why since I didn't talk to my mom. I'm hoping she call herself today so I know what's going on. Originally they were thinking they'd release him this week so I'm hoping that still happens. I'm also curious to see if he has been able to eat and drink yet without getting sick. Again, you'll know more when I do.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Tim is awesome!!!

I was playing around on the internet, as usual, and all of a sudden he hands me a bacon, egg, and cheese biscuit. It was soooooooo good! Nothing like homemade. He should really be a chef ;)

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Finally, some answers!

I'll start with Max because I know everyone has been waiting to hear what we found out yesterday. I meant to post last night, but I was too tired.

Max's IQ is above normal. He's in the 82nd percentile which means only 18% of kids his age know more than he does. However, his attention span was in the normal range. If you look at either of the tests alone, he appears pretty normal, but a little smart. If you put them together, he appears to have ADHD. For his intelligence level, he should definitely be able to still a lot longer. She also said some of the attention test was on the computer and he did really well there. Since he hyperfocuses on the computer, that may have caused him to test higher in the attention portion than if she had given it orally. Basically, if his attention matched his intelligence he'd be in the 98th percentile. Because of the discrepancy she definitely feels that he does have ADHD.

She recommended we see a doctor who would prescribe meds because she really feels that they would help Max. Tim doesn't necessarily agree with meds though, and I really wanted to wait until he goes to school. So, our next option is counseling. Max would go some on his own and do play therapy, but Tim and I would also be involved with learning how to help him deal with his impulsiveness, attention problems, and meltdowns. Tim agrees that that's the best place to start and we'll go from there.

Nothing really surprising. Dr. Monroe was very impressed with Max and it cracked her up that he would ask if they could be done with the questions because he was bored. He really just wanted to get back to the waiting room to play.

As far as an update on my dad, he's doing better. He did have another infection pocket erupt yesterday, but it's probably a good thing because now it's out and he can work on continuing to get rid of the infection. His NG tube is out and yesterday they started letting him drink little bits at a time. If he can keep it down without getting sick to his stomach than they'll increase the amount and what he's allowed to have. Hopefully his antibiotics will continue to work and his white count will continue to go down. At this point he is supposed to be released next Wednesday unless his labs don't look good or something else pops up. My mom still isn't sure how long they'll stay down in FL as she likes that they are handling his IV antibiotics well. It would be a hassle for him to fly home in between doses. We shall see though. I just want them home so I can go visit and take the boys to see him.

Tim told me last night he heard of a bar near here that has rock bands on Saturday nights. So, of course he wants to go out again. Since we rarely ever do, I'm all for it. Alli is probably still sleeping though so I have to wait a bit to call and see if she can babysit! Keep your fingers crossed. With all the sickness going around, I just want to have fun and forget it all for a night.

We are all home for the weekend so I'm hoping to do something that doesn't include vegging on the couch. Unfortunately its supposed to rain all weekend so that really limits what we can go do.

I'm off for now, but I shall return!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Boys SUCK!!

K, first let me start with Max. I totally forgot to mention this, but a few weeks ago when I was dropping him off I overheard something I never thought I'd hear. At least coming from a 4 year old. One little girl did something Max didn't like. He called his "girlfriend" over and whispered "Go tell ??? you're gonna kick her ass." Little girl saw me standing there and refused, but I wonder if she would have done it (repeated what he said at least) if I weren't there. I told his teacher so she would know we didn't find that acceptable. Yikes!

Today someone didn't do what he wanted them to do so he kicked and hit at them. Got talked to and 5 minutes later did it again to another child. When the teacher tried to take him out in the hall to talk to him, he kicked at and hit her. HUH??? He loves this teacher!!! He got sent to the office where they would now like to know how we would handle such a situation. That's a tough one. At home he might get spanked and would definitely be sent to his room. Most likely we would take away his computer and anything else he seems to be in love with at the time. No snacks, or anything fun for at least the rest of the day. What can they do there though?? Tim out in the office and stay there until he wants to be human again is the only thing I can think of. Fortunately we have his appointment with the psychologist tomorrow to find out the results of his testing. I'm hoping to bring that up and see what she has to say.

On to Alex. That kid is an absolute monster. In addition to having no fear and getting into anything and everything, he's a mean bully!! He hits at home, beats the crap out of Max and has been pushing other kids down at daycare. Last week he knocked one girl off a bookshelf that he probably taught her to climb up on. Spanking him does no good because it just teaches him to hit more and he doesn't listen to NO at all. I've tried time outs, but he's really still too young for that. I get right in his face and tell him that it's unacceptable, but how much does he really understand. I guess it's good practice for when he does, but I am at the end of my rope with these two monsters. And second, today he grabbed his teacher's chest and said "boobie" Where did he get that from????? We don't use that word, and really, we don't much talk about them around here because I'm the only one that has them. Max was curious for awhile when Alex was still breast feeding, but it doesn't come up that much. How embarrassing!!!

With all that is going on with my dad right now, I'd really just like to curl up in a ball on the couch and cry. Veg, scrapbook, whatever. Nothing stressful that's for sure. These kids do not give up though. If I don't get myself medicated with some happy pills I'm going to have to start medicating them or someone isn't going to make it to their next birthday.

Ahhh, feels better to get that out.

A bit of mindless rambling for my sanity.... Today is Thursday. I have a gazillion shows that I watch on Thursday nights and Tim decided tonight of all nights to download and start watching Juno on his computer. It's a chick flick! Might be a comedy but it doesn't seem like something he would like. How come he has to watch a movie that I've been dying to see on a night when I already have enough to watch? He can't wait til this weekend when there will be NOTHING on TV to watch?? GRR! Men!

EWWWW! Someone on Survivor just ate bat. That is nasty. I guess where he's from that's normal, but just gross!!! I don't care how hungry I am, there is no way.

Bill and Rusty are down on FL with my parents now. I must say that I'm quite jealous. They also haven't called to give me an update today. Wonder if they think because they are all there I don't need information anymore. Um, I don't think so. Mom did give me some pretty good updates on where things stand when I talked to her yesterday, but I expect a call everyday. It's bad enough that I can't be there but to be left out of the loop too just sucks!

I guess that's about all I have for tonight. Just needed to get a few things off my chest. I'm sure there'll be more this weekend! Stay tuned!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

What will be #3??

So, first my dad. He still isn't doing well. From what I understand, he's feeling better, but still isn't doing great. His white count is still up so that means there is infection somewhere. If the infection gets in his blood, that could be bad. My mom has been working on getting him home, but so far it's hard. They have to prove he'd do better at home with his doctors because insurance won't cover medi-vac if it's just for their convenience. Bill and Rusty are flying down to FL tomorrow so spend a few days with them and then drive the car back up. Either way my mom and dad will be able to fly home and not have to worry about the car. I just wish I was there, or could go there or be with them. It's driving me nuts that I'm stuck here and can't do anything. Even if they are able to get home later this week, my schedule, and Tim's, next week don't allow for much time to travel. I will find a way to make it work though.

Anyway, on to #2. Russ (Tim's mom's husband) called yesterday to tell us he had a lump removed from his lip and it turned out to be malignant. He has to have surgery again next week to make sure they got all the bad tissue. Then there is the possibility of chemo or other treatment.

I have been a basket case for the last week and a half with my dad and now it's gotten worse. All I can think about it who will be next. These things always come in threes. I'm afraid to let the kids play outside, I'm afraid that every phone call is going to be bad news. Who knows, it could be me.

All of this happening makes me want to quit smoking, get Tim to quit chewing, start eating healthier, etc. But even though it's in my head as the right thing to do, it's not in my heart. Especially quitting smoking. I want to grow old with my children and be there for them, and if I were to get sick I couldn't do that. But at the same time, I just don't know that I'm strong enough to do it. Especially now. Ugh!! Why does life have to suck sometimes??

On a lighter note, the weather has been amazing. We stopped by McDonalds today on the way home because it was late, ate quick and went outside for awhile before bedtime. The boys just want to play on the trampoline which of course makes me a nervous wreck. They did have fun though. Tim came home and spent some time with us out there as well. Now they are snuggled safely in their beds. I should probably be napping, but I slept enough today that I should be fine tonight.

I guess I don't have much else. Please keep our families in your thoughts and prayers!!!

Sunday, April 6, 2008

It was definitely nice outside today!

So we took the boys out for a few hours. Tim cleaned out his truck, I cleaned out the van, and he vacuumed both. Mostly I just chased Alex around the yard and tried to keep him out of the road. Max ended up sitting in the back of the van watching Wiggles on the DVD player. What a goof. It was almost 70 and we probably could have worn shorts, but there was a breeze that kept it a little cool.

Alex still has the big D something awful. His poor little butt is raw!!! I've been putting cream on it with every change, but he screams anytime I touch it. Poor baby. I also got him some oatmeal bath soak and had him soak in the tub tonight. He was apprehensive at first, but then he didn't want to get out.

For dinner Tim cooked out on the grill. I had a yummy bacon cheeseburger and most of the boys had hotdogs. Then bath and bedtime for then and now we are just lazying around on our computers. Nothing new ;)

My dad called a bit ago. I had actually talked to my mom earlier so I knew what was up ahead of time. Basically, they snuck calls in to each of us from the ICU because my dad is going back in for surgery tonight. They are thinking the problem now was not his appendix, but perforations in his small bowel that grew to his appendix when they healed in the past and that finally ruptured. He has more perforations now and that's why they are doing surgery again. Yesterday his white count was really high which means some sort of infection. Now that they know the new perforation is there, that's probably the reason and hopefully surgery plus antibiotics will kick this once and for all. After draining tons of gunk out of his belly and abdomen today, he says he feels a ton better. My mom said that he should ooze much less this time around because he hasn't been on the blood thinners all week. No matter how you look at it, I'm worried. I don't like that they are so far away and that I can't be there for them. I thought today about calling work, taking a leave of absence and flying down, but what would I do with the kids?? If I could come up with something, you can bet I'd be there already. Please pray that everything goes well tonight and he can be released soon and they can both get back to MI!! 2 months is long enough for them to be gone as it is. This delay is just added stress that they don't need. Not to mention I just really want my dad healthy again. He is too strong of a man to be kept down for long, and that's what makes it so hard to hear about him being so sick.

Hmm, didn't mean to get so heavy. It's pretty much all I've been thinking about today though so I guess I needed to just talk about it a little bit.

There are quite a few new pictures on the dropshots site and I've done a few new scrapbook layouts as well. I'll post those here though because I want to make sure you see them. I had fun doing both~


If they show up thumbnail size like I think they will, just click them and it will take you to the full sized version.

That's about all I can think of for tonight. I'm going to probably fall asleep soon. I actually ended up not working last night because I didn't feel good. They had to send someone so obviously I volunteered. Fortunately I'm not sick like Alex, but I can see getting to that point this week. Hopefully it skips me because I'm working the next 4 nights after tonight!


Saturday, April 5, 2008

It must be nice outside or something

None of the message boards I frequent are very busy today and I'm bored out of my mind. I just reinstalled windows on my laptop last night so I'm still missing my scrapbooking software or I'd work on that. I'd really just like to take a nap but the boys are having none of that. Well, Alex anyway. Max has been watching movies upstairs all day. I offered to take them outside because it's almost 60* out but he didn't want to go. Alex just runs away and makes me crazy so I decided not to take him out alone.

Ugh, I hate days like this, and I hate even more that I have to work tonight so I'll want to be sleeping tomorrow when the weather is even nicer and Tim will be home. I guess I could forgo a few hours if he wants to do something as a family. Not that we haven't been on most weekends, but the weather if finally nice.

Update on my dad since I didn't do that all week. Because of the blood pressure meds he's on and was on before the surgery, they are having a problem getting his bleeding to stop. He's oozing from the surgery site all the time. His oxygen levels are a little low too so he's on oxygen which he hates. My mom said she is walking him at least every two hour in the hopes that he'll heal quicker!! They still aren't sure when he'll be released, when they are coming home, or how they are getting here. I just hope all goes well and he can get out soon. My dad is alot like me, not a very good patient. Keep him in your thoughts! It does sound like he does a bit better each day but it also seems like he has a long way to go.

Alex is obsessed with bubbles lately. He's been cranky so I offered to read to him. He wanted the book, but didn't want me involved so I let him go at it. One book was about Bert, Ernie and Big Bird with bubbles. I would peak over Alex's shoulder and read the words to him. The next thing I know he's walking around with the book saying "bubbles, bubbles" and something else that I can only assume are hair and nose. He keeps pointing to those body parts. It's so stinking cute.

And Max, hmm, the updates I have on that kid. Wednesday he had gymnastics again. His instructor said he likes to blow in Sophie's ear. She's the little girl of mom who I want to be friends with. So, I'm thinking it's a coincidence. He's too young to want a girlfriend, right?? The very next day he was hugging on some girl at school when I picked him up. Actually, she hugged him first. Anyway, as we were leaving she blew him a kiss across the playground and he blew one right back. How cute is that? He is such a little player already, just like daddy used to be until I tied him down. It was cute, but I'm really just not ready for my baby to be growing up.

Next Friday will finally be our appointment to find out how his evaluation went. The wait is killing me, but with our schedules there wasn't much else we could do.

Alex wants attention again and it's almost dinner time so I should go. I am still bored though. That just isn't right ;)

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

I'm back...

But you knew I would be right? I said I was bored!! I did nothing all day long today. Well, except nap. I slept for more than 2 hours this afternoon and I didn't even realize I was that tired. I definitely needed it.

So, tonight, shortly before we should have been putting the boys to bed, Tim hauls a big box out of the storage room. Time to clean up the toys. I think he's as sick of looking at it all as I was. We rearranged a little, got rid of junk and boxed up stuff to sell this spring in the yard sale. There is still more I'd like to get rid of, but it's hard to throw things away with both kids standing over us and watching every move we make. Anyway, kids are in bed and the basement looks awesome!

Hmm, so onto the reason I decided to come back and post. Max made me all sad and even more homesick than ever today. On the way to school this morning he said this....

"Mommy, do you remember when we lived in Virginia and I was at Ms. Naila's house and I was trying to get on the swing? I fell on my head and had to go to the hospital and get staples in my head and then Kim came over and just CUT them right out of there. Do you remember that Mommy? I remember that, but I don't remember what color the swing was at Ms. Naila's house. I want to go there again, Mommy. I miss Ms. Naila. It was funner at her house than at preschool."

Ugh, it broke my poor heart! It's no secret that I miss my friends and sometimes my job there, but to know that Max misses it as well makes it even harder. I do not miss the traffic, cost of living, or Tim working a million hours a week, but I honestly think I'd go back if I could. Too bad we'll probably head to Chicago before we head to DC. Now that we've done big city metro life, I'm not so sure we are cut out for this small town stuff. I like it, but I would like it better if it was somewhere where we felt like we fit in. Not that we don't fit here, we just don't know anyone and I'm pretty lonely.

And, today was April Fool's Day. We are such old fuddy duddies. We did nothing funny to the kids or each other. At what age do you become old? I know its usually a state of mind, so our minds must be ancient. Haha, what a bunch of dorks we are.

I think I'll sign off here. I'm trying to watch American Idol and it's hard to listen to the singing while I'm typing. Later!

Did you see??

Look over there ------------>

I added a link to my scrapbook pages underneath the boys pictures and videos. All the digital scrapbook pages that I've done are there now, and I'll continue to add as I create them. Keep checking back. I have lots to catch up on, I just have to find the time to do some!

Not much new to report. I feel like crapola today. I don't know if I didn't sleep good, if it's allergies or whatever. I just want to keep sleeping. I must need to catch up from the weekend.

I did get a call from my mom yesterday that has me a little nervous. My dad's appendix ruptured while he's on vacation in FL. It happened after my mom flew to California for a nurses convention. He had to have emergency surgery which is never a good thing. From what I hear he came through everything fine, but he's in the ICU so they can watch him for infection. That's the part that leaves me scared. I hate the idea that something could happen to him when he's so far away. My mom is flying back now, or in 20 minutes, but I assume she's already on the plane. She wasn't sure how long he'll have to stay, but they won't be stopping here for a visit on their way home next week now. The boys are too crazy and dad needs to rest so hopefully we'll get to see them in a few weeks. Maybe I'll take a little trip up there.

Did I mention I love it now that I'm working less. I feel like I have so much more time for me, which I feel is important. It keeps me happier so I can enjoy time with the boys more and not be so tired/cranky all the time. It's also letting me get more done around the house, although I haven't done anything yet today. I think I need to recoup from the weekend first and then tomorrow I can tackle the mess!

I think that's about it. I'm sure there will be more. You know I'll be back!