So, first my dad. He still isn't doing well. From what I understand, he's feeling better, but still isn't doing great. His white count is still up so that means there is infection somewhere. If the infection gets in his blood, that could be bad. My mom has been working on getting him home, but so far it's hard. They have to prove he'd do better at home with his doctors because insurance won't cover medi-vac if it's just for their convenience. Bill and Rusty are flying down to FL tomorrow so spend a few days with them and then drive the car back up. Either way my mom and dad will be able to fly home and not have to worry about the car. I just wish I was there, or could go there or be with them. It's driving me nuts that I'm stuck here and can't do anything. Even if they are able to get home later this week, my schedule, and Tim's, next week don't allow for much time to travel. I will find a way to make it work though.
Anyway, on to #2. Russ (Tim's mom's husband) called yesterday to tell us he had a lump removed from his lip and it turned out to be malignant. He has to have surgery again next week to make sure they got all the bad tissue. Then there is the possibility of chemo or other treatment.
I have been a basket case for the last week and a half with my dad and now it's gotten worse. All I can think about it who will be next. These things always come in threes. I'm afraid to let the kids play outside, I'm afraid that every phone call is going to be bad news. Who knows, it could be me.
All of this happening makes me want to quit smoking, get Tim to quit chewing, start eating healthier, etc. But even though it's in my head as the right thing to do, it's not in my heart. Especially quitting smoking. I want to grow old with my children and be there for them, and if I were to get sick I couldn't do that. But at the same time, I just don't know that I'm strong enough to do it. Especially now. Ugh!! Why does life have to suck sometimes??
On a lighter note, the weather has been amazing. We stopped by McDonalds today on the way home because it was late, ate quick and went outside for awhile before bedtime. The boys just want to play on the trampoline which of course makes me a nervous wreck. They did have fun though. Tim came home and spent some time with us out there as well. Now they are snuggled safely in their beds. I should probably be napping, but I slept enough today that I should be fine tonight.
I guess I don't have much else. Please keep our families in your thoughts and prayers!!!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Sunday, April 6, 2008
It was definitely nice outside today!
So we took the boys out for a few hours. Tim cleaned out his truck, I cleaned out the van, and he vacuumed both. Mostly I just chased Alex around the yard and tried to keep him out of the road. Max ended up sitting in the back of the van watching Wiggles on the DVD player. What a goof. It was almost 70 and we probably could have worn shorts, but there was a breeze that kept it a little cool.
Alex still has the big D something awful. His poor little butt is raw!!! I've been putting cream on it with every change, but he screams anytime I touch it. Poor baby. I also got him some oatmeal bath soak and had him soak in the tub tonight. He was apprehensive at first, but then he didn't want to get out.
For dinner Tim cooked out on the grill. I had a yummy bacon cheeseburger and most of the boys had hotdogs. Then bath and bedtime for then and now we are just lazying around on our computers. Nothing new ;)
My dad called a bit ago. I had actually talked to my mom earlier so I knew what was up ahead of time. Basically, they snuck calls in to each of us from the ICU because my dad is going back in for surgery tonight. They are thinking the problem now was not his appendix, but perforations in his small bowel that grew to his appendix when they healed in the past and that finally ruptured. He has more perforations now and that's why they are doing surgery again. Yesterday his white count was really high which means some sort of infection. Now that they know the new perforation is there, that's probably the reason and hopefully surgery plus antibiotics will kick this once and for all. After draining tons of gunk out of his belly and abdomen today, he says he feels a ton better. My mom said that he should ooze much less this time around because he hasn't been on the blood thinners all week. No matter how you look at it, I'm worried. I don't like that they are so far away and that I can't be there for them. I thought today about calling work, taking a leave of absence and flying down, but what would I do with the kids?? If I could come up with something, you can bet I'd be there already. Please pray that everything goes well tonight and he can be released soon and they can both get back to MI!! 2 months is long enough for them to be gone as it is. This delay is just added stress that they don't need. Not to mention I just really want my dad healthy again. He is too strong of a man to be kept down for long, and that's what makes it so hard to hear about him being so sick.
Hmm, didn't mean to get so heavy. It's pretty much all I've been thinking about today though so I guess I needed to just talk about it a little bit.
There are quite a few new pictures on the dropshots site and I've done a few new scrapbook layouts as well. I'll post those here though because I want to make sure you see them. I had fun doing both~
And
If they show up thumbnail size like I think they will, just click them and it will take you to the full sized version.
That's about all I can think of for tonight. I'm going to probably fall asleep soon. I actually ended up not working last night because I didn't feel good. They had to send someone so obviously I volunteered. Fortunately I'm not sick like Alex, but I can see getting to that point this week. Hopefully it skips me because I'm working the next 4 nights after tonight!
Later!
Alex still has the big D something awful. His poor little butt is raw!!! I've been putting cream on it with every change, but he screams anytime I touch it. Poor baby. I also got him some oatmeal bath soak and had him soak in the tub tonight. He was apprehensive at first, but then he didn't want to get out.
For dinner Tim cooked out on the grill. I had a yummy bacon cheeseburger and most of the boys had hotdogs. Then bath and bedtime for then and now we are just lazying around on our computers. Nothing new ;)
My dad called a bit ago. I had actually talked to my mom earlier so I knew what was up ahead of time. Basically, they snuck calls in to each of us from the ICU because my dad is going back in for surgery tonight. They are thinking the problem now was not his appendix, but perforations in his small bowel that grew to his appendix when they healed in the past and that finally ruptured. He has more perforations now and that's why they are doing surgery again. Yesterday his white count was really high which means some sort of infection. Now that they know the new perforation is there, that's probably the reason and hopefully surgery plus antibiotics will kick this once and for all. After draining tons of gunk out of his belly and abdomen today, he says he feels a ton better. My mom said that he should ooze much less this time around because he hasn't been on the blood thinners all week. No matter how you look at it, I'm worried. I don't like that they are so far away and that I can't be there for them. I thought today about calling work, taking a leave of absence and flying down, but what would I do with the kids?? If I could come up with something, you can bet I'd be there already. Please pray that everything goes well tonight and he can be released soon and they can both get back to MI!! 2 months is long enough for them to be gone as it is. This delay is just added stress that they don't need. Not to mention I just really want my dad healthy again. He is too strong of a man to be kept down for long, and that's what makes it so hard to hear about him being so sick.
Hmm, didn't mean to get so heavy. It's pretty much all I've been thinking about today though so I guess I needed to just talk about it a little bit.
There are quite a few new pictures on the dropshots site and I've done a few new scrapbook layouts as well. I'll post those here though because I want to make sure you see them. I had fun doing both~
And
If they show up thumbnail size like I think they will, just click them and it will take you to the full sized version.
That's about all I can think of for tonight. I'm going to probably fall asleep soon. I actually ended up not working last night because I didn't feel good. They had to send someone so obviously I volunteered. Fortunately I'm not sick like Alex, but I can see getting to that point this week. Hopefully it skips me because I'm working the next 4 nights after tonight!
Later!
Saturday, April 5, 2008
It must be nice outside or something
None of the message boards I frequent are very busy today and I'm bored out of my mind. I just reinstalled windows on my laptop last night so I'm still missing my scrapbooking software or I'd work on that. I'd really just like to take a nap but the boys are having none of that. Well, Alex anyway. Max has been watching movies upstairs all day. I offered to take them outside because it's almost 60* out but he didn't want to go. Alex just runs away and makes me crazy so I decided not to take him out alone.
Ugh, I hate days like this, and I hate even more that I have to work tonight so I'll want to be sleeping tomorrow when the weather is even nicer and Tim will be home. I guess I could forgo a few hours if he wants to do something as a family. Not that we haven't been on most weekends, but the weather if finally nice.
Update on my dad since I didn't do that all week. Because of the blood pressure meds he's on and was on before the surgery, they are having a problem getting his bleeding to stop. He's oozing from the surgery site all the time. His oxygen levels are a little low too so he's on oxygen which he hates. My mom said she is walking him at least every two hour in the hopes that he'll heal quicker!! They still aren't sure when he'll be released, when they are coming home, or how they are getting here. I just hope all goes well and he can get out soon. My dad is alot like me, not a very good patient. Keep him in your thoughts! It does sound like he does a bit better each day but it also seems like he has a long way to go.
Alex is obsessed with bubbles lately. He's been cranky so I offered to read to him. He wanted the book, but didn't want me involved so I let him go at it. One book was about Bert, Ernie and Big Bird with bubbles. I would peak over Alex's shoulder and read the words to him. The next thing I know he's walking around with the book saying "bubbles, bubbles" and something else that I can only assume are hair and nose. He keeps pointing to those body parts. It's so stinking cute.
And Max, hmm, the updates I have on that kid. Wednesday he had gymnastics again. His instructor said he likes to blow in Sophie's ear. She's the little girl of mom who I want to be friends with. So, I'm thinking it's a coincidence. He's too young to want a girlfriend, right?? The very next day he was hugging on some girl at school when I picked him up. Actually, she hugged him first. Anyway, as we were leaving she blew him a kiss across the playground and he blew one right back. How cute is that? He is such a little player already, just like daddy used to be until I tied him down. It was cute, but I'm really just not ready for my baby to be growing up.
Next Friday will finally be our appointment to find out how his evaluation went. The wait is killing me, but with our schedules there wasn't much else we could do.
Alex wants attention again and it's almost dinner time so I should go. I am still bored though. That just isn't right ;)
Ugh, I hate days like this, and I hate even more that I have to work tonight so I'll want to be sleeping tomorrow when the weather is even nicer and Tim will be home. I guess I could forgo a few hours if he wants to do something as a family. Not that we haven't been on most weekends, but the weather if finally nice.
Update on my dad since I didn't do that all week. Because of the blood pressure meds he's on and was on before the surgery, they are having a problem getting his bleeding to stop. He's oozing from the surgery site all the time. His oxygen levels are a little low too so he's on oxygen which he hates. My mom said she is walking him at least every two hour in the hopes that he'll heal quicker!! They still aren't sure when he'll be released, when they are coming home, or how they are getting here. I just hope all goes well and he can get out soon. My dad is alot like me, not a very good patient. Keep him in your thoughts! It does sound like he does a bit better each day but it also seems like he has a long way to go.
Alex is obsessed with bubbles lately. He's been cranky so I offered to read to him. He wanted the book, but didn't want me involved so I let him go at it. One book was about Bert, Ernie and Big Bird with bubbles. I would peak over Alex's shoulder and read the words to him. The next thing I know he's walking around with the book saying "bubbles, bubbles" and something else that I can only assume are hair and nose. He keeps pointing to those body parts. It's so stinking cute.
And Max, hmm, the updates I have on that kid. Wednesday he had gymnastics again. His instructor said he likes to blow in Sophie's ear. She's the little girl of mom who I want to be friends with. So, I'm thinking it's a coincidence. He's too young to want a girlfriend, right?? The very next day he was hugging on some girl at school when I picked him up. Actually, she hugged him first. Anyway, as we were leaving she blew him a kiss across the playground and he blew one right back. How cute is that? He is such a little player already, just like daddy used to be until I tied him down. It was cute, but I'm really just not ready for my baby to be growing up.
Next Friday will finally be our appointment to find out how his evaluation went. The wait is killing me, but with our schedules there wasn't much else we could do.
Alex wants attention again and it's almost dinner time so I should go. I am still bored though. That just isn't right ;)
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
I'm back...
But you knew I would be right? I said I was bored!! I did nothing all day long today. Well, except nap. I slept for more than 2 hours this afternoon and I didn't even realize I was that tired. I definitely needed it.
So, tonight, shortly before we should have been putting the boys to bed, Tim hauls a big box out of the storage room. Time to clean up the toys. I think he's as sick of looking at it all as I was. We rearranged a little, got rid of junk and boxed up stuff to sell this spring in the yard sale. There is still more I'd like to get rid of, but it's hard to throw things away with both kids standing over us and watching every move we make. Anyway, kids are in bed and the basement looks awesome!
Hmm, so onto the reason I decided to come back and post. Max made me all sad and even more homesick than ever today. On the way to school this morning he said this....
"Mommy, do you remember when we lived in Virginia and I was at Ms. Naila's house and I was trying to get on the swing? I fell on my head and had to go to the hospital and get staples in my head and then Kim came over and just CUT them right out of there. Do you remember that Mommy? I remember that, but I don't remember what color the swing was at Ms. Naila's house. I want to go there again, Mommy. I miss Ms. Naila. It was funner at her house than at preschool."
Ugh, it broke my poor heart! It's no secret that I miss my friends and sometimes my job there, but to know that Max misses it as well makes it even harder. I do not miss the traffic, cost of living, or Tim working a million hours a week, but I honestly think I'd go back if I could. Too bad we'll probably head to Chicago before we head to DC. Now that we've done big city metro life, I'm not so sure we are cut out for this small town stuff. I like it, but I would like it better if it was somewhere where we felt like we fit in. Not that we don't fit here, we just don't know anyone and I'm pretty lonely.
And, today was April Fool's Day. We are such old fuddy duddies. We did nothing funny to the kids or each other. At what age do you become old? I know its usually a state of mind, so our minds must be ancient. Haha, what a bunch of dorks we are.
I think I'll sign off here. I'm trying to watch American Idol and it's hard to listen to the singing while I'm typing. Later!
So, tonight, shortly before we should have been putting the boys to bed, Tim hauls a big box out of the storage room. Time to clean up the toys. I think he's as sick of looking at it all as I was. We rearranged a little, got rid of junk and boxed up stuff to sell this spring in the yard sale. There is still more I'd like to get rid of, but it's hard to throw things away with both kids standing over us and watching every move we make. Anyway, kids are in bed and the basement looks awesome!
Hmm, so onto the reason I decided to come back and post. Max made me all sad and even more homesick than ever today. On the way to school this morning he said this....
"Mommy, do you remember when we lived in Virginia and I was at Ms. Naila's house and I was trying to get on the swing? I fell on my head and had to go to the hospital and get staples in my head and then Kim came over and just CUT them right out of there. Do you remember that Mommy? I remember that, but I don't remember what color the swing was at Ms. Naila's house. I want to go there again, Mommy. I miss Ms. Naila. It was funner at her house than at preschool."
Ugh, it broke my poor heart! It's no secret that I miss my friends and sometimes my job there, but to know that Max misses it as well makes it even harder. I do not miss the traffic, cost of living, or Tim working a million hours a week, but I honestly think I'd go back if I could. Too bad we'll probably head to Chicago before we head to DC. Now that we've done big city metro life, I'm not so sure we are cut out for this small town stuff. I like it, but I would like it better if it was somewhere where we felt like we fit in. Not that we don't fit here, we just don't know anyone and I'm pretty lonely.
And, today was April Fool's Day. We are such old fuddy duddies. We did nothing funny to the kids or each other. At what age do you become old? I know its usually a state of mind, so our minds must be ancient. Haha, what a bunch of dorks we are.
I think I'll sign off here. I'm trying to watch American Idol and it's hard to listen to the singing while I'm typing. Later!
Did you see??
Look over there ------------>
I added a link to my scrapbook pages underneath the boys pictures and videos. All the digital scrapbook pages that I've done are there now, and I'll continue to add as I create them. Keep checking back. I have lots to catch up on, I just have to find the time to do some!
Not much new to report. I feel like crapola today. I don't know if I didn't sleep good, if it's allergies or whatever. I just want to keep sleeping. I must need to catch up from the weekend.
I did get a call from my mom yesterday that has me a little nervous. My dad's appendix ruptured while he's on vacation in FL. It happened after my mom flew to California for a nurses convention. He had to have emergency surgery which is never a good thing. From what I hear he came through everything fine, but he's in the ICU so they can watch him for infection. That's the part that leaves me scared. I hate the idea that something could happen to him when he's so far away. My mom is flying back now, or in 20 minutes, but I assume she's already on the plane. She wasn't sure how long he'll have to stay, but they won't be stopping here for a visit on their way home next week now. The boys are too crazy and dad needs to rest so hopefully we'll get to see them in a few weeks. Maybe I'll take a little trip up there.
Did I mention I love it now that I'm working less. I feel like I have so much more time for me, which I feel is important. It keeps me happier so I can enjoy time with the boys more and not be so tired/cranky all the time. It's also letting me get more done around the house, although I haven't done anything yet today. I think I need to recoup from the weekend first and then tomorrow I can tackle the mess!
I think that's about it. I'm sure there will be more. You know I'll be back!
I added a link to my scrapbook pages underneath the boys pictures and videos. All the digital scrapbook pages that I've done are there now, and I'll continue to add as I create them. Keep checking back. I have lots to catch up on, I just have to find the time to do some!
Not much new to report. I feel like crapola today. I don't know if I didn't sleep good, if it's allergies or whatever. I just want to keep sleeping. I must need to catch up from the weekend.
I did get a call from my mom yesterday that has me a little nervous. My dad's appendix ruptured while he's on vacation in FL. It happened after my mom flew to California for a nurses convention. He had to have emergency surgery which is never a good thing. From what I hear he came through everything fine, but he's in the ICU so they can watch him for infection. That's the part that leaves me scared. I hate the idea that something could happen to him when he's so far away. My mom is flying back now, or in 20 minutes, but I assume she's already on the plane. She wasn't sure how long he'll have to stay, but they won't be stopping here for a visit on their way home next week now. The boys are too crazy and dad needs to rest so hopefully we'll get to see them in a few weeks. Maybe I'll take a little trip up there.
Did I mention I love it now that I'm working less. I feel like I have so much more time for me, which I feel is important. It keeps me happier so I can enjoy time with the boys more and not be so tired/cranky all the time. It's also letting me get more done around the house, although I haven't done anything yet today. I think I need to recoup from the weekend first and then tomorrow I can tackle the mess!
I think that's about it. I'm sure there will be more. You know I'll be back!
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